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I am really dissapointed with the public transport in my country…This morning i was taking the bus no.76 to my work place..it is like…hell..i was really angry.. that bus really turn me into a monster.

i was taking the bus which schedule to flee at 7.10am usually…but today it only flee at 7.15am.thats ok for me…but that stupid bus stop st the very next station which at the Puteri Park for the next 5 minutes….fine…it is ok for me oso…then it had its ’slow walk’ for the next 10 minutes…fine..i was assuming that the driver is ‘warming up’ the engine..

But what i really cant ‘tahan’ (stand) is the really stupid keep braking the bus all the way down…wat the hell!!!! you know la…traffic is ALWAZ jam in morning hour in Ampang. KL area…so the bus of course like usual will stuck in the traffic bit la…use to it liao…but the way that the bus driver drive the bus is making me crazy… i was feeling like wanna throw up all the food, my coffee and my breakfast which i ate this morning..he is like tiding  knots to my stomach..making my head splited into my pieces…u know la..i have sum kind of ‘mabuk kereta’…my frenz who know me well enuf oso know that fact…

waking up early in the morning to catch a late depart bus is a very painful thing..but when u are ‘fishing’ in the bus and the bus keep ’swinging’ ur head and ur body left and right…that is really annoying..especially for ppl like me who can easily ‘mabuk’….braking the bus frequently in the traffic jam is like taking away my life….traffic jam oso can brake that frequent…hell!!!!!!!!!!cant he just be bit more ’skillful’??

i really have no idea how the driver pass his driving exam and get his license…dun say me ’sui’ la…perhaps u r oso thinking the same thing as i do…

another i am really not satisfy is the bus supply in my area…we all know that the government had launched the so-called new public transport system in KL klang valley…but i dun see how it benefit my residential area..

for example,before the system was launched, there are only 2 type of bus which the residents of Tmn.Muda can take in order to go to the Ampang area,KLCC area..dahlah supply low…alwaz wait till gila for the supply…When the new system launched, it din affect my area at all…the supply for bus no. 76 still that low…whenever i wanna catch that bus from KLCC area bek home…i can saw there are lot of supply of the bus no.28…bla..bla….annoying…cz i cant take that bus back home…i CAN ONLY take no.76 or no.79(which i need to walk a distance in order to get home)…i have no other option…din that really annoying??

What has the new system(NS) do to my area?ya..it din got some effct on my NEARBY area…in Tmn.Kencana…if i REALLY wanna take a ride on the new bus system….i have to walk(for at least 15-20 minutes) o pay RM1.00 to get to the nearby tmn..then take the NS bus to go to maluri(one of the main station),then change bus to go to KLCC…

HELO….din that sound even more troublesome than i take a one round bus to my work place??even waste more money and time…is that wat the government call an efficient public transport system?????i doubt it…

Dream in my dreams..ya…i can only se my first class degree in my dreams…either in my day dreams or my night dreams…sob..sob.. what a sad thing…

Last semester’s result had been released… it is an unexpected results.. Last sem’s papers are quite tough…and i had no confident in scoring the papers..So, a drastic fall in my results is what i was expecting..just hopefully my cgp will pass 3… that would be good enough for me…

When i got the news that the results had been released at that very nite..i still remember..it was around 11.30pm…my heart beat became abnormal..hands and legs became cold like ice…very nervous…waiting my computer to be connected online…logged into my acc to check my results online… the moments of waiting the results to be display is killing my cell..finally, it poped out.. i scolled down slowly..till the end…

God bless..my pointer pass 3..my cgpa and cgp passed 3…oh my gosh…my cell are screaming in joy…it was really beyond my expectation..the lecturers are generous in giving marks…At that very moment, i feel like the God of Luck is on my side…but not for long…why…

i know i should i should be happy for what i have now..but human are greedy in nature.. i am one of them…therefore so do i…hehe…to grab a first class degree i need more…if the standard is set to 3.6…i need another 0.3 for it… ai..but i cant never reach that standard…even though i score 4 flat for the coming 2 sem…i can just manage to reach 3.50..yet..i dun think i can score 4 flats…so sure lower than 3.50..heart break…sob..sob…i can just watch the first class degree fly away from me…tata..my dear first class degree..

i just have to face the fact that i have to pay my ptptn loan lo…sob..sob.. now u know why i so….’beria-ia’ wanna take that first class degree la… cause if i am a first class degree holder, i can stand a chance to apply for the loan to become scholarship…but now…ai…in my dreams la…

the reality is so cruel…i say to myself…

**positive thingking..positive thinking**you have to be gald with ur current score**dun be so greedy**…my angle shouts to me…

**but being a second class degree holder wo…**you satisfy with it geh la??**… my devil guardian fires back…

wa…..i am going crazy la…in my brain,my mind and my soul..2 of these creatures begin the battle…making my head big…sob..sob…when will this battle ever end….

A Zen student said to his teacher, “Master, I have an ungovernable temper. Help me to get rid of it.”

“You have something very strange,” said the teacher. “Show it to me.”

“Right now I cannot show it to you.”

“Why not?”

“It arises suddenly.”

“Then it cannot be your own true nature,” said the teacher, “If it were, you would be able to show it to me at any time. Why are you allowing something that is not yours to trouble your life?”

Thereafter whenever the student felt his temper rising, he remembered his teacher’s words and checked his anger. In time, he developed a calm and placid temperament.

A well known speaker started off his seminar by holding up a $20 bill. In the room of 200, he asked, “Who would like this $20 bill?” Hands started going up. He said, “I am going to give this $20 to one of you-but first, let me do this.”

He proceeded to crumple the $20 note up. He then asked, “Who still wants it?”

Still, the hands went into the air. “My friends, you have all learned a very valuable lesson. No matter what I did to the money, you still wanted it because it did not decrease in value. It was still worth $20.”

So, what is on your mind now, my dear friend? Actually, this article is trying to tell us that you are special: bent or creased, you are still priceless to those who love you. Our life’s worth lies not in what we do or who we know, but in who we are. Whether you dropped, crumpled, or ground into dirt by the circumstances of life, you will never lose your true value. Got me?

That day I saw an article in a paper…It make people think. Are you growing older or growing? This is part of the article I took from the papers..

“We do not stop playing because we are old; we grow old because we stop playing.

There are 4 secrets for staying young being happy, & achieving success. You’ve to laugh & find humor everyday. You’ve got to have a dream when you lose your dreams, you’ll die. We’ve so many people walking around who are dead & don’t even know it!

There is a huge difference between growing older and growing up. If you’re 21 years old & lie in bed for one full year and don’t do one productive thing, you’ll still turn 22 years old. If I am 87 years old, and stay in bed for a year and never do anything, I’ll turn 88 as well.

Anybody can grow older. That doesn’t take any talent or ability. The idea is to grow up by always finding the opportunity in change. Have no regrets. The elderly usually don’t have regrets for what have they did, but rather for thing they did not do. The only people who fear death are those with regrets…”

So, my friend… are you growing up or growing old??